Oh. I see.

[He takes a sip of his coffee as he processes all of this. Its not...right but its not wrong either. Hes not sure what he might have done in Rufus'shoes except not kidnapping Aerith or attacking cloud for sure. ]

I can't fault you for that mindset. I guess then what is your 'what is'? What's your gameplan back home...or here for that matter?